I went to see a friend today who I haven't spent any real time with in a long time. So long that her son is now 6 months old and today was the first time I had properly met him and sat down to play. Why I hadn't gone to see them in such a long time I really couldn't say. Especially as they only live down the road (really quite inexcusable!) Now thinking about it I can only conclude that I kept putting off what I wanted to do because I always felt that I had other things that HAD to be done. Being a parent, and from my perspective particularly a mum, means that no matter what you want to do...you come last. Working to bring in money for mortgage/rent & bills, housework, food (& other essentials) shopping, managing money, dealing with any medical or health issues...the list is endless when you have a family to support.
What was great about today is that we got to have a proper talk and, as it turns out, we had both been feeling the same insecurities and having the sames doubts and fears. Even just spending that couple of hours talking really helped me, especially to understand that no matter how alone you feel there is someone else who is probably feeling the same. All it takes is that bit of extra courage to say what is on your mind rather than burying it all inside and driving yourself to distraction until one day you blow up! My advice...spend time with your friends to have a cuppa and a natter, it's amazing how it can help 😀